It Wasn’t the Same as Before – But It’s Okay

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wrote this last April 24, 2010.

After a month, I got the chance to get out with my former colleagues at work. It was the usual talk-laugh-talk on the road towards our destination and during munching time. But I didn’t get to share much stories unlike before.

I have only been away for three months, so I know the people and the events that they were talking about. But somehow, I lost touch on some of the details; I kept on asking why to all of them. I don’t know much anymore.

Then I remembered; yes, it has already been three months since I left my former work. I have been away for that short time, but it seems like ages.

With that realization, I leaned back on my chair. It hit me: I don’t belong anymore.

But instead of feeling different, I just enjoyed staring at them one by one, as either one told a story or reacted to what was just said. I missed the times when I was with them at one table. At least they’re not talking about the work that they left at their desks.

Does this mean I’m having regrets about leaving? Part of it is yes, part of it is no. But as long as I’m given the time to spend with these friends again, I will just be fine listening.

It’s true – it’s not the same as before. But it’s okay.

Moving On

How do you continue for another day when a lot of goodbye’s have been said the day before?

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How do you pick up the pieces and try to put it together, knowing that it will never be the same?
How do you see the new day?

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What do you tell yourself – “I’ll be alright” or “I’ll be fine?”
How come you tell people you’re okay – but deep inside you’re not?
How come in spite of the many things that occupy your mind, it all boils down to “it’s still empty?”

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When will the day when you could proudly say “I’m back to normal” come?